Dear daughter,
I’m sorry.
I’m sorry for all you have been through at such a young age,
When you’ve been hurt like the slicing of your finger on a page.
I love you with all my heart,
I always did right from the start.
When I first discovered you growing in me I was so young,
Yet you set me free.
You had no father but trust me I tried so hard,
Although whether biological or non they both left your heart in shards.
I miss those simple days back then,
Just us.
Your brother came along and we were a happy family.
I hate how he left you.
I hate how they both did.
You’re full of life, kindness and love.
Yet you can be full on and give your brother a shove.
I don’t fully understand why things have happened how they did,
I wish I handled it better,
You stayed out in the open, you carried on while I hid,
I wasn’t well, I wasn’t right,
You kept me going for the fight,
Your sister came along you took the news in your own way,
I know you worried but she’s ok, she’s out now she can stay.
I haven’t been perfect I know it.
Quite frankly I’ve been fucking shit.
So, I know it doesn’t mean much but I’m so proud of you.
You’re incredible.
Can’t believe I made you.
I know you love me too and I hope one day we can make it through.

This was beautiful Bryony… I’m sure your girl will cherish it once she’s old enough to understand. We always feel we’re not good enough or not doing enough for our kids, but to them it doesn’t matter, as long as they feel loved and secure. Thanks for sharing this with #itsok
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Wow beautifully written #itsok
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Guilt is to motherhood as grapes are to wine I think
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Beautifully written! I enjoyed reading it. This is something that your daughter will love to read and cherish in years to come. I could have wrote something similar for my eldest son 🙂
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Aw thankyou – maybe you still could for him
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